For you dear Pimples..^-^ So that you feel flattered and get Lost...~~~~

Sorry everyone for another long break!! As usual my brain has been lazing around and this time lazing around the Last exams of my life as a student..:P :P yay!! i am happy no more exams to give..:-))

And Then it was a week holiday family trip to Mumbai which refrained me from my place....:P yay yay!! I am super happy now..:-)) Such days are hard to come by..And visiting Mumbai for second time made me realized Mumbai is such  a beautiful place to live in..:))

Now this post come in dedication to pimples..
Yes..yes! you read it right-- those fat , ugly outpourings though skin which seem like over enthusiast characters bursting out from confinement to seek what is happening outside..;) for how dare we do not include them in all action! Those very thingies who are never welcome anywhere yet are touched every time to ascertain if they are still there!!
Those very bloody pimples!!!
And now you'll ask why am I bothering to dedicate my blog space to them???

Because they have bothered my skin space and encroached upn my once-upon - a- time beautiful , flawless skin! I am angry, vindictive, helpless at this outpour of my own..

Pimple and I had long back association...so let me trace my history..

CUT TO SCHOOL
One or two pimples every one or two months and mom getting frantic with all her house made recipes to experiment on my face..So I'd be smelling of neem or cinammon or sandalwood.. ** 
CUT TO INTIAL YEARS OF COLLEGE
tell my ears of big club party whether it be a fresher party or weekend party where teenagers accumulate in large no. and my subconscious mind would get down to havoc..!
Just one day before..would pop out one in the most strategic of places..you don't believe me ..let you have a pimple at very end at your nose where the two nostrils conspire to meet and then i'll ask you!!

May be finally the Gods ups decided to let me be!
or may be finally the excessive heat from within my insides :P cooled down the pimples into believing yes I have grown up and so just f**k off

CUT TO NOW
I am accompanied by four or five of them every week..:'( :'( creatinfg marks on my ever- shining skin..:'(  screwing my Love -causes- no - pimple theory!
so I Panicked!
My friends , who have spent last 6 years admiring the glow of my skin! are regurlarly complaining..Some of them even said " kuch karle warna shaadi nahi hogi teri" ..
this was not happening! oh someone pinch me back to reality..!!
And you won't believe I uploaded a status on my twitter account..
Do or die situation just one day before my friend's marriage ...outbreak of three monster pimples..two little peas and one big ugly ball* suggest disaster recovery programme ASAP*
And my well meaning friends and followers came up with 41 comments..I was suggested damn everything from toothpaste to ice packs , clearsil to Saafi, neem water wash to coconut water flush, own spit applying to cucumber drying..
I got down to experimenting but bloody all of them refused to Budge!
in addition to giving permanent marks on my face...:'(

So now when the countdown has already begun...
I dread watching myself in mirror and sped up the antisapetic application daily ..the days pass in silent sighs..And every next day I slip out of bed hoping to see my clear skin..I want everyone should notice the small dimples on my cheeks and not those pimples..over obsessed I hate getting my pics clicked ..that I loved once upon a time

But every next dat they are bloody reproduced And now present FOUR of them adorning my cheeks * one couple might had  twins..:P*
And now when the situation has become worse..worse than ever..My little nephew R is now teasing me to find one inch of skin space on my face to kiss..and I doubt how I am tolerating them..he even entitled me with the tag " Pimple queen".

So dear readers and friends
please pray for me..it is said that mass prayers helps in getting past any tragedy and at present I am in life -threatning situation..:P lol
Warna main kissi ko muh dikhane layak nahi rahongi...:P :P
boo-hoo
yours faithfully
me..:))

What WOMEN want................????????????????

This one comes in wake of request made by a dear friend of mine A ,who is counfounded by the womenly issues and baffled often and on by the biggest question that gives sleepless nights to the stronger sex: WHAT WOMEN WANT??...Notice the use of women and not woman..that is how he asked me..and that how it is..one woman is never enough..they want them all..!!!..:P

So I sat down to revisit this post which I started 2 months back, but gave in between because it had become too dreamy as if straight from a romantic movie...;) ;) just out of theatre..would you believe i told A that the man in the question should know how to sing...

so thankfully, i am rethinking, editing to bring out some grains of truth..
What is the key to getting women's heart?????

a. sex appeal
b.money
c.give her a big house and space
d.kindness and sincerity
e. persistence
f.UNNNNNNNHHHH
g. choclates/roses/ gifts as frequent surprises..
h."You tell me"/ "how should i Know lead "kindly 
A Bloody mixture of them all..and many more

So having mentioned these, half of which I still dont know what they refer to..what do we as a bundle of expectations and hope look in a suitor who is all to woo us????????

A WARM HEART
Nothing touches us as quick as warm beating heart..The easiest way to reach us is by showing that there is oodles of goodness in them and the readiness to take us to the comfort zone..where we can just be ourselves and know that someone is around us ..someone who makes u feel good about life, himself and yourself..he is not a joker mind u..but make u laugh not just from mouth but from heart..A warm touch..yes such a mere touch with no sexual tension involved..minus the complications can make us woobly in the knees...


A MENTAL PLANE
THis like a second most requirement for me ..The man in question must be able to provide us with stimulating conversations that we feel compelled to return to again and again..A beautiful mind scores more any day  over a beautiful body..and no doubt..there it does!!

A BEAUTIFUL BODY :p
This becomes third in line for me..though often it becomes" first" to pull out my interest..lol..but then every morning when we open the newspaper , we have 100 things screaming our attention..but whether what seemeed good from outside is worth from inside  too..and here again the first two takes the precedence!!
but then back here..a beautiful body..ugh..ugh..not the muscled kind plzz!!
i dont know why guys pumps in so much iron at gym in the mad quest for bulges. 
A fit body with a pleasant and smiling face is enough for me!!drop dead gorgeous looks are turn offs! a guy with loads of attitude brushing through sleeves deserves whack on his face..

Smiles do it all for me!..:))) why cant u guys gives us more of these....



BEING A MAN
Now i Love this word..something that is a contradiction in itself..A man with a hint of mystery..a man who is not afraid to shed tears in movie  yet hold strong when economic crisis happens ..a man who holds door for you outside a restuarant yet wont mind asking you to pay the evening out just for pampering..

Thats a man alright!  being able to hold himself when things around him goes wrong. a shoulder to cry on and not turn us into tissue bag...hopelessly unpredictable yet dependable...
And then treat me like a woman..and i'll treat u like a man..:))

STAND BY ME
Being able to support me..when whole world tries to supress me down..to be able to adore me even on bad days ..to tell me that I have gotten fat with just right amount of words .to pull me up when I am down..

That is what we want!!! care to provide us with this and we will surely be around..see i told u my version is utterly romantic..:P :P
And now I am quite sure you are already thinking ..like this ..no man would ever match up..oh come on ..we are always ready for adjustments,..we are women after all , a big fool..:))

but for now i am tempted to add these too...;) :P :P
should know how to sing...
should know how to burn dance floor..
should dress right suited to occasion
should have a good deep voice ..
should have good teeth and no body odour
should give us space and treat the right people around us who matters
should understand the day's tiding by our face and expressions ,
should praise us frequently and lavishly
should shower us with surprises and pleasant oness..
should never expect too much from us...
should never make us wait - for call, message or date
should remember the dates- ok not the day when we hugged- or when we first kissed..but anniversaries and birthdays...


hello , that is not much to asked..hehehe
see , i am just tempted to add ..not really added..so you can release that "phew"..let me get this straight now..what men "think" women want this should be the list above- his wallet, diamonds , likes ,out of world sex ,and other such inane guesses..they really don't count ...


There is a reason why sharukh khan is king of bollywood..reason why valentine's day has grown so big.and reason why some men score over others...


P.S.  Thank you A for forcing me for this one..laughing out loud..
I hope for all men that they understand us women
and for all us women, that we understand ourselves..

**Good FRIENDSHIPPPPPPPss......**

In life we have "come alone and we have to go alone." said S WHeN he was consoling me recently with life's gyan so called "duniyaari"..In life we live in big bubble of sorts, when one of it bursts , we latch on to another.. we are tuned to look for cozy zones, regardless of testing them first if they are for real or just with us in transition..

For having just couple of weeks before I discovered about bad friendships , its amazing that I realized all over again- great ones are around still..Someone once said I was a bundle of contradictions ..seems like I am hell bent on proving it right..

If one trust get broken somewhere..god opens other doors for us to explore.this was not said my any wise friend ..it has been repeated and used and even misused so many times that its has lost its importance..Just like there are people out there to take advantage so are humans to add color and meaning to it..

AND great Friendships and friends are just that great..---making u fly high..:-))They make ur life queen size..because u know some one is there to cater to ur whim and fancies..u know these friends would side by u whether u break down or cry..u keep the other fit by taking him or her up the  tree "channe k jadh par",by constantly appreciating what other has to offer..They made u forget u had been gloomy or sad or dumb or even numb ..They bring peace to ur mind which is otherwise used for wandering..

healthy for body and mind..Wonder y doctors dont prescribe it to patients especially the depressed ones..??
hmm..how the body you may ask?? well, good friends makes u laugh , not just ur blues away but also lead to blood flow..
"hum khoon badhate hain" should be the slogan of good friends..imagine the fitness level when all the facial expressions get involved in constant smiling laughing and smiling..the arms get extended for huggs..the rushing of blood..keeping us on toes So that when there is a need for friend to walk in, we may not be found lacking!

Good friendship are just that too good...

 May we all find our friendships to live with and die for...
P.S. I have found a friend to live with and die for..:))))
thanks amity university..:))

***Express your "LOVE" now....***

Hmm..I want to write something nice today..

Something that has an intention to make me feel "good" n too my readers as well..ah!

**sounds so flattering, as though i have a million eyes all glued to computer screens just to catch a glimpse of my next post...lol..;) ;)**

With new dimensions in my life and my perceptions all changing..I am trying to hold on the sensible madness that defined me..But today i want to speak of love ..The "unexpressed" love..I have a very dear friend of mine who is in love with a guy from a long while, say months which is actually long enough by today's standards..but but she has been unable to express it..

Now this "cupid playing" syndrome development on "her"  had several repercussions on "me" too..

1. I sooooooooooo wanna fall in love again now, for there is nothing in this world that gives you better kicks n highs that falling into naya naya pyaar..

:D :D

2.You can find me all puffed up for the task of bringing *do pyar karne wale* together..But in bringing them together I realized the cupid is striking me too..lol

3.It got me thinking so much as to why people wasting time to express how they feel..when they could have been wrapped in each other's arms..

I Read somewhere back that all of us have a default minds like closed buds of flowers and we suffer from one of many syndromes like..

--" What would people say?? I cant risk being that.."

--"Fearing what...if I am rejected..or laughed at.???"

--"would it be a death of good friendship...??"

etc etc

Thankfully...some of us bloom, but sadly many of us remained confined in our thinking..yes yes even for life!! Although we see passionate commitments in today's scenario , changing faster than season's fashion trend , there are yet a handful of youngsters who still believe in the old fashioned love..Saying themselves along with the L-WORD for the special someone....

I truely believe that whenever you like someone , you Must let that "someone"

know..All of deserve to know if there is someone who secretly like us a lit more than people arund us..It is such an amazing feeling to be loved! I dont know why people are so horrified or embarassed or cringy at the idea?? Even if you may not be able to love the person back,it would make you feel warm to know that u made an impact of some kinds and whatever u are doing is likeable enough *yiy ,yiy,yiy!*

Further , my dear souls in love, someone who coined the old proverb "Early bird catches the worm" did not do so in state of dizzy drunkenness...he made and still makes a sense..

If u would wait for the right moment in all probability, the right moment would come too late making it a wait forever!..Besides , any emotions if let unexpressed slowly start to rotten some vital domain of feelingsss..You become so used to of hiding sentiments,that even when one fine day you get into a committed relationship ,you often leave gap everywhere which you want to fill but u find urself unable to do so out of the dumb habit of being that way...

What maxima can happen????

He would laugh at the idea..??

Laugh about it along with him..pretend that it could have mattered a lot if he had said "yes" but phew , alas now it does not!..

And that stupid line" we can truely love just one person in our life" definately did so in a state of dizzy drunkeness!! we all live post rejections , even if friendship is lost , there is no way there cant be more or better ones...

Nothing and no one in life is indispensible...

And that line "mein uske bina nahi rahe sakti"  is too cheesy even for films now..!!

In today's world we people are mature enough to handle the fact that someone  has feelings for them..One doesnot let things go awkward or go in hyper tension just coz he knows another person in that room once expressed her love to him! He moves on by saying that he doesnot feel the same way and hence even after declining the  love he retains the friendship..

So express your love..say as u feel..love n be loved...for there is nothing else that matter on this Earth..After all we were not sent on this earth to create

 history but to love n let love..:-))

P.S. the post was for ur and my motivation...go n express ur love ...!!!

AND you THOUGHT I was dead already..?????

I havent updated the blog in last 20 days..To me, it seems forever..I havent done this ever since I started to write here and experienced a different world altogether..But off late, things had not been too promising..There was too much happening on the personal front, social front and proffesional front, you know??? I was so caught in this mayhem of college, social commitments , having to pacify everyone around me..And so that left me almost breathless..

There happened lot of  incidents that made me think , made my hands itch to write..But the mind as well as the days were so overworked that I couldnot get a single coherent thought make way to the blog without million others bombarding my poor BRAIN..Things took a turn for worse when I deleted  one of my stories i had written for a blogger contest..It was a grand idea and I had sat up late at night to finish it before it lost it charm just life I have lost all my charm..:P :P

My readers have been kind enough to visit my blog regularly ans some of them even proffesed to having missed me..!!
YAY!! Some even came up with the ideas just in case if I am suffering from the w--riter's block.Actually It was just theopposite of that..Anyhow..I really loved the compliments and the affection  and was longing to feel the exhilarating feeling I was feeling to unburden myself and connect to the wide range of people who love me, love to read my blog and who love to hate me..!!!

And all this while I was gone..
--I watched the couple of movies including the recently released BARFI...Loved it completely..

--Fought with an old friend and that made me think a lot about people and how they could possibly outgrow each other even after a long 6+ years of togetherness..Anyways dont want to mention her name here...:P

--Got a few surprises from M..including a very cute bag ..:-))

--Read a book (long pending in "to be read list")

--Met my sweetheart buddy KG, after the longest time that we have known to be apart..We had an amazing talks like always , catching up on our lives and generally having fun..Heartfelt Thanks to the other K who made our meeting possible, driving me all the way to her "khopcha" office and teaching me a inspiring lesson " Dont rush into things, my career is important than any other thing.." ..

--Met my old college buddies A, N, K after a span of 2 long years..Laughed out discussing our old apeejay days and the old teachers..And yes yes , all of them miss my "smile , laugh, and continuos chirping" for which I was "famous for"..and i really dont know where I have lost that smile...:-((..Dont worry guys that smile with me chirping all the time  will be back soon...:))

-- Noida trip for the second time was much of a picnic than the placement drive..EnjOyed "Mama mia"  with P and S .. dear S , U are really great at "lOVE SHAYARI"..lol..:P :P  And those Five kulfis  all in one go made me fall in bed with high fever and cold....** the coughing effect still continues..**

-- Gained  5 pounds of weight in just 15 days..giving me a moniker Of "motu"...with some complimenting and the others commenting ...:P

--Had some blooper moments too,
Like I washed my awesome Sony cybershot camera in the washing machine and yes no points for guessing it's broken and can't be fixed for an amount equal to its cost..And so (no points for guessing again) we have decided to buy a new camera this diwali..:P
--I also dropped my phone couple of times ..And one of those times , lost my 4 GB memory card..And with it all my data, photos and most importantly my songs list that I had so painstakingly created..:-((

Dad, has been a real sweetheart after recovering from his illness and acted so cool after I " washed " the camera ..He even jokingly remarked--"now the pictures would me so much cleaner"! Ha..

And it feels like I have lived the excitement of whole life within the last 20 days while nobody could guess from outside..that so much action could be happening in my life from inside..But now I think that I am back for good and doing what I do the best..:-))

And oh yes , my cousin Y had completed her Phd..And she is officialy a doctor now..making me immensely proud..:)

*stay blessed until the next time*
will be back with blogging..:)

Happy birthday to me!!!!!

For all its worth , this could definetely be my last birthday celebration on this earth..This is the lastest date of world doom according to the Mayan text if it is to be believed..(December 21, 2012) ..But then I was never big on birthdays anyways..;) ;)

Completed exactly one less than the quarter of the century...Doesnot really generates too many emotions within me..As they say, "age is just a count of number , unless you happen to be a bottle of wine" .yes , yes I totally agree...:-))

In my past 23 years, there wasn't any birthday when i Celebrated my day without Maa, Paa..Missed you Mom, Dad and K and I really don't know how much!!

It all started with the news of rejection in "Headstrong" teaching me the most braveful lesson of the life on my day" Success is sweet after failures!!, keep us spirits high!..Still miles to go!! work hard and party harder...There is always another and a better way""..and i am really not the kind of person who would shed my tears atleast for this stuff...:P :P

Birthday wishes started One hour prior..No, no it all started a one month prior , when  a  good friend of mine mistook my birthday to be on 31 st of July..My dear N, its time to change you ..From the last 4years you are wishing me one month prior...when will you change??? Just kidding, It is your wishes that matter to me and not the day and timings..I am not excited , eagerful for who will wish me at sharp 12 am..The wishes is what add smiles to my face and not the timingss..

UGH!! UGH!! the birthday bumps by friends still giving me pain..:P Dont worry, I'll take revenge for it...Bcoz of the continous "tring-tring" cant even had a sound sleep , giving me dark circles around my eyes..lol..:P But the hush romantic ringtone on my cell overjoyed and fascinated even the juniors around us..;);)

Next day, Now begun the actual fun!! The major part of the day went quite uneventful bcoz of the unbearable hot weather in Noida..Thanx S and P for making my day special and unforgettable with me doing all crazy stuff..:P :O Dear S, u can really be a good event manager and i have decided that I'll will for sure hire u for my " marriage" :P :P 

S, I am so sorry for those 25 slaps I gave u , that were ur pre- birtthday bumps..lol..Thanx for tolerating me all the way..And P those roses were really beautiful ..I loved them! but murja gaye saare..":( :(

It doesnt ended here..Gifts started pouring in when I met my old gold buddies DH, A..We laughed our guts out for close to an hour ..Thanx A for ur precious time and coming tired all the way from office just for me..A great way to usher the birthday-in , laughing and rolling..

Needless to say, I was overjoyed!! Can there be any better birthday than dat??? Thank you besties..:-))And then came the best news of the day ..My dearest jiju got his promotion for which he was working hard from the last 6 months..Isnt that greaat???

 thanks everyone for ur blessed wishes and a bigger thanx to those wh forgot to wish me..;)

thanx S for making my day so special,,,Mom , dad AND K i realized no one can take ur place

I Was ecstatic and on the top of world...

Dear GOD, whereever you are.I just want to say a Big thankyou for showering me with so many gifts this year..There is absolutely nothing more that I cant ask for..You have been so great to me!! 

Babyhood chronicles!

I love babies! So much that sometimes when I look at a very cute one! I have a longing to have one of my own..;) ;) :P Half of H and half of me ..H (my would be husband) ..Although I know there is still another decade for it..It sounds utterly romantic to me..But this post is about my nephew R , my first baby..:-))

  Something was refraining me to write the blogs since a month ..But today When R asked me so innocently "blags" ?? (though he dont even know what blogs are ) ..His innocence cant hold me back to write post dedicated purely to him.
So , my dear R , you are the showstopper today!!..You have not been mentioned in this space ever..You'd ask why?? Because You mean to me what I can't even begin to put into my words..But today I had to , to ease my own pain..To bring to the surface all happy emotions and feelings and memories I share with you..Nostalgia is a very strange thing..All those memories make me laugh now..And all those moments we spent and are spending having the times of our lives, makes my eyes well up..So while I'll go nostalgic trying to recall all those stupid, funny, mad, cute , maddening stories all over again..I'll try not to cry *sniff*

You came into my life when I was in +2 .. I was so happy that day, I had my first accident.:P ..I was so happy that I was shivering with excitement to see you and I hit the ground with smile on my face because I was trying to picture you in my thoughts...Anyways I got up, brushed myself and ran away to home to see you..I still remember the first moment when I saw you, you were sleeping and I was so scared to touch you lest it hurt..Even while sleeping You were scared by the camera flash and Look at you today! All ready to pose and do so much "natak" all time..:-))

You used to love playing in those dark nights when everyone else was asleep..You remember those nights..??I did stupid antics to make you laugh..I remember both of us laughing and rolling for no reason.
In morning I used  to be half asleep and tired but when I saw sleeping peacefully , I gloated to everyone that I was the reason behind it..Little did I know that you were reason because of which I could study even when I was tired to my bones ..R, ur smile did that to me..:):)

And then one day I have to leave..Go away to another city.We parted ways..And then You remember that time when I came to meet you after 5 months?? You had almost forgotten me, almost too shy to acknowledge me..But within two hours you were the brat I always knew-naughty, smart kickass ..I still remember my disbelief at hearing you speak those cute litlle broken sentences..The first time you called me "bua"..Nothing has ever  sounded better to me..I still remember those five days I spent with you..You would eat with me, sleep with me hugging me, refusing to leave my side even for a second..And didn't I felt proud about that?????

And then came the day when I had to go back..You were glued to me at railway station, I had a lump in my throat too..It was not easy for me to pry myself from you..But was there any other way?? When the train left the station I saw you crying and tried to push back my own tears..But do you know that I cried the whole waking part of my 10 hour journey..?? I had swollen eyes when I reached college..It just broke my heart t away from you..And that day I really understood what a real heart break actually feels like!..:-(

Then began our meetings which were far and few in between.We always looked forward to meet each other..And I really loved it when you gave me special attention, awaiting my home coming and then climbing on my lap immediately and asking for your gifts..You remember those dragon balls?? :P

7+ years into relationship and you are naughtier than ever..But I know how much you love me..You are too young to understand that feeling, but still I can see in your eyes when you understand that I had to leave and I Cant be with you all day, everyday..Your conversations makes me smile and laugh ..Your perspective of world is so damn cute.., it makes my heart all gooey..You know how much I love you and you never fail to take advantage of that, don't you??? But then I seriously love your expressions when you think you have made "maamu" out of me..

Sometimes I am deeply engrossed thinking how my baby will be..Although I know there is still a decade for that.I dont know how she/he will be like.But I have always loved you and will keep loving you like my first born..:-))I dont know if i have it in me to love the other one so passionately and dearly..But i do wish that you can read this post when you grow up and know that I loved you with all my heart and all my love..I always wish you get the best life has to offer..And even though I get upset that you dont call me "bua" but I am secretly super happy and kicked in my heart because you have given me a special name that is so much cute and cool..:-)Thank you Riddu for what being what you are and making me what I am!!..Your smile is still an inspiration to me ..:-)) Love you baby..:* :*

Happiness and all that Hoopla!!

Lately I have been miffed and confused with the different definitions of happiness around me..Now different people tend to be happy about different things..I amsure that definition of happiness is different for all of us..Some of us might find our salvation in some retail therapy, some in their kid's smile, some in their work,some in spirituality, and lot of people find in power and money..And their are some people who conform to other people idea of being happy and find their happiness in other people happiness..But since when did it become faishonable to equate happiness with money and all things that it can buy..??

For once I am not conformist , nor do I believe in shop till u drop formula of girls of my age.I, infact hate shopping, U know the kinds hopping from shops to shops, malls to malls oblivious of what you want, just waiting for serendipity to happen..That's not my idea of Shopping, i go to shopping when I actually need something, buy it and come back..Being having a traits of a true virgo , i am very choosy too, sometimes I donot buy anything and come back...But some people cannot digest the fact that the girl can act wisely and choosy at the same time..I mean what we girls been relegated to..???You know people actually say things like she is sting, she is miser, wouldnt spent on herself..Oh please dats my dad hard earned money ..Dont I get to choose what i want..and where i need to splurge out his money..May be you didnt think I was being smart or did you..??



And yes the other thing about the money, I am a typical Virgo when it comes to money..I like to have loads of it in my bank..;) You know we like being secured..So when I go to shop, It helps me think rationally ..When I See something ridiculously expensive, like a formal Van Huesen skirt for 4000 bucks, it helps me rationalize..I know my dad will never say "no" to buy it , but i'll buy it only if  i'll need it..Because there are times when you like something but you dont have the money to buy it..Then it doesn't matter , whether you need it or not , because u'll always remember having not bought it because u cannot afford it..You know that self pity mode, women are pronge to go into..that's dat..Having money to splurge makes me wiser...:) :)

I like to spend my dad's hard earned money my way..:P  And that actually makes me happy and wiser..:P
For me buying useless things/ useful things is not equals to happiness...I find happiness in buying my favourite books in original paper work, in buying books on sale where every books costs Rs 100..And i am infact happiest if i get some lazy time to lie down in my bed and read that book..I am happy when I spend time with DH and my family, cracking PJ's or playing with Riddu, my nephew, And i love to travel, that is in our genes..:P My dad too prefer too spend his hard earned money on a week's vacation over buying expensive gifts like Diamonds or pearls for Mom, but its vice versa for Mom, she find her salvation in Her Diamonds...ugggh, Mom!!!But that doesnt mean i am averse to all good things in lyf...Its all about the "rush" people experience when they shop..I am just not like that..Materialism is not my idea of happiness..

People , i am not here to act all siantly, but i just wanted to figure out  what makes me happy and my idea of happiness...U people also need to think out what makes U happy to stay happy..

**Stay Happy**

BeCaUse SuNsHinE MakES Me bEauTIfuL....

Why do we associate all things lively and interesting with sunshine??
Talk to any Dad gushing to his daughter and he will quick to add.."Here goes my sunshine girl.." Talk to any boyfriend head over heels in love with his girl he will remind you that she is his "sunshine" girl..I figured it is because we look forward to a new day as sun rises and shines and lights up our day...Its the nature alarm telling us to leave our failures of past just there and move for a new beginning..

Cut to reality..Come summers , we all like to hide ourselves and our priceless white glowing skin behind closed doors to prevent in from sun burnt and tanning..We curse the sun and pray for rain.Even the schools and college close for good two months..On a typical summer afternoon if u ever decide to go down the road( God forbid u shud do so), all U get to see is t.he lonely road, the sound of whirring coolers in homes and a looming silence with not a soul in sight..Well except S

S is my child hood buddY ...we have shared our secrets and stories of success and failures, hopes, anxeity and aspirations..She always know how to cheer me up when I m feeling down or doubting my talent or self worth..She has always been there whenever i needed her and the most jovial person I have known all my life..She is a kind of person everyone wanted to be friends with but it take great pride in the fact that she is my sunshine  my "S"

A few days later this sunshine jokes of ours turned quite literal for us as I developed skin problems which worsened as I stepped out in the sun..And imagine that for a girl living in a place where the summer temperature hovers around 43 and threatenigly close to 48 degrees , I have tried various sunscreens lotions off the rack but nothing worked for me..My skin was too sensitive for them..It would break out even before I stepped out of home in Sun..

 S and I had a huge fight..Apparently she had planned an outing with a bunch of our friends for 5 days in Sweltering heat of May- June..I being myself was so horrified with this idea of hers as if she was suggesting to go to graveyard at 12 in midnight..! She tried convincing me but I was in a no mood to listen..We both huffed and puffed and S left sensing that I was too worked up about my "skin" and all that..

A few days after  , I recieved an anonymous courier..As soon as I open it I laughed heartily,..This was my "make-up" gift  from S who apparently had taken up my malady too seriously..

I was almost determined not to go on for an experiment session again when my eyes fell on other thing in that courier packet. S knowing me well had written a letter..

Dear C,
            I know u are feeling very distressed these days because of ur skin issues, what with it turning dark and sun burnt patches..But let me tell u U are still same sweet C for me who is my best buddy..Nothing absolutely nothing, not even SUN with all its mighty powers can change my feelings and love for u..But C ,I tried to tell u something the other day too, but U just wouldnt listen and that when I realized the SUN  was not only playing havoc with ur skin but ur character too..

In all these years I have never seen you so worked up or talking so rudely to me..Not only has ur appearance changed but  your beautiful inside too. My charming , gentle C has turned rude , aggressive  C who is only safeguarding her skin while our friendship is withering away in ur hostility..


Tears went rolling down my cheeks.I couldnt read it any further..The letter lay crumpled in my hands..I had not realized how much I had hurt S, who had been there for me always. And I decided enough is enough, how long could I be sitting inside the house, fearing my demons?? I had to go out and face them..
Next day, doused with a liberal portion of Lakme Sun Expert with SPF(sun protection Expert), I went to S's  house to surprise her..We both hugged each other and decided to go out ..S and I stepped out oblivious of the harsh sun..We were reveling in the joys of our once again blooming friendship..A few hours later as we entered the house laughing and joking, I began to panic..I was so happy that I havnt checked on my skin not even once(:P) What if I had broke out again..What If ? What if?

And with the thousand questions on my mind..I dashed off to the washroom to check my appearance..As I looked at my face incredulously S walked up from behind and gave me a smile..Eureka..! It had worked out..And slowly my damaged skin returning to its glorious old self..

My sunshine girl literaly brought sunshine back in my life..I can never thank her enough for not only making my skin  better and empowering me to step out at any time of the day but also making me a better human being..I might not be able to get a "Lakme  Sun Expert" for all the obstacles that I face in my life, yet I will always have the comfort of knowing that S will always be my side without ever judging me..love u my sunshine girl..:):)

For all those who stayed away or staying away from their MOM...

According to a survey made the bag packs of most of the Indians enrolled in foriegn Universities are stuffed with maggie noodles and mangoes..Ready to pay excess baggagge fees for them, students are willing to leave books and clothes behind..Other favourite includes Pickles, jaggery, bhujias and ghee..One creative soul insisted on carrying traditional broom..! Rightly so , what a broom can a vaccum cleaner cannot..Thus I conclude " Old habbits die hard"..


If u have ever lived a part of your life in hostel, then rewind back of those golden days..When I went to hostel my mother insisted on umpteen boxes of  saccharine savories..On the days when the mess food was despicable which usually was a norm especially on wednesdays and fridays( ewww...a feel of  retchness).:P, those were the delicacies that come to our rescue..

Always on my day of departure the house was engulfed in mist of emotions..Asthe packing starts , the mist thickens..!! Daddy in his somber mood find solace sitting infront of telivision ..The mother finds refuge in her kitchen..Dishing Delicacies for my mother is measure of her emotional connection..If truth be told, kitchen is not my place..:P  I was incharge of packing all the food items and making space in my bags..

For young girls and boys novels, magazines, hard drives, laptops are like oxygen cylinders..Naturally space for all the food stuff is limited...But " MAA KI MAMTA" knows no limitation..Does it..??Both parties sticked to the stated poisitions and tension escalates..Suddenly the firm voice of dad breaks the impasse.."Take all that ur mother has packed..Throw it if you can't finish.."

Poor me shoves all the ghee dunked delectables made by the ladies of the house at the cost of my own favourite clothes and novels..:/ :/

Three days later I call my mom
me :" mom...hungry"

mom : "No food in the mess..??"
me :  "yuck thas was horrible, " i can starve rather than that despicable food..
 mom :  "Finish all that I packed..???"

me: "yes"
mom  : "dry fruits..??"
me  :"yes"
mom: "In just 2 days..??" did u threw away the stuff I packed??
me: :friends finish everything

After the call, like any other mother she found her dinner insipid, only to be informed the next day that we raided the canteen for our aalo filled paranthas..

So dear mothers if ur child is ready to go abroad, where the chances of hogging aalo paranthas at midnight are puny, be ready to packet that make sense..;)

Happy Birthday to my Girl Friend...!!!

So today my girl friend completed one less than the quarter of the century..Yes yes!! it generates too many
**emotions**   within me..

"AGE is just a count of number , unless u happen to be a bottle of wine.." so rightly said..
Instead of buying her an obscenely expensive gift I wanted to be with her on this b'day!! But my dear Mr. "A " if u ever read this post in future I hate to u to  the core for not being with her on dis D day...;) :P

Summoning back the memories, glancing the pics of her last birthday is wilting me down..."Wow"...that was the wonderful birthday indeed!! With thoughts all brimmed in my mind so many things have changed in just 2 years..ugh ugh!! Only the "things" sweetheart..but our relationship dynamics still remains the same..The point is Lucknow to Gurgaon (approx 600 kms) actually a long distance relationship, but nothing has changed and nothing is gonna a  change in near future..

DH today as you add one more year to your life,i pray to the almighty to color your life with love and spread the smile..color your dreams and spread the wings so that u can fly high..I will always miss our long chats, phone calls , how u wake me up in morning and after texting u I sleep back again, walking around the MGF, Sahara mall, *Cg* notes , Aahun aahun , WC, bts, msc and hell lot of things to mention here..and please you dare not to mock at my bad drawing this time..:P

On this D day i dont want to make you nostalgic dearo with all the weirdest, funniest, adventurous stuff we had before bcoz its the time to forget all worries , pains,heart aches and welcome your special day with new hopes, aspirations, success and above all loads of happiness....I know you waited for 12 months for this special day, to be pampered like princess from Aunty  and Uncle..No matter whether you start working,settled into matrimony or fumbling bumbling as a wife and then mother, yet the day will never lost it importance bcoz u will always be the "angel" for ur beloved mom  ,darling dad , loving didi n of course cribbing " ME" ...:P :P

So here is a big " birthday kiss" for you and a bigger tight  embrace so that U dont feel bereft of my companionship today..As for the slice of cake i will somehow manage to live without that and please this time donot hold me to have my favourite ** chowmien** ;) like you did on your last birthday..:(:( I remember u  didnt let me  have the bit of this cake  ..Dont worry sweetheart i'll take the revenge soon...

I Try to remember that touch which gave me goose bumps at tug at my arms with my own hands to feel that feeling again...
So sweetheart " Welcome to club 24 BABES"....my only wish on this ocassion is May the almighty God bless u with all fun, food , family, friends , fiance and a ferrari  too...;) 

Enjoy Your day  :* Get drenched with juices with foot trapping music high in volume ...;) :P :P
See ya very soon!!...:)
cheers..:) <<hugss>>
love u and miss u i dont know how much...!!!

Vicky donor delievers...!!

First thing first...John Abraham take a bow..!!
A hard pat on the back  for a fresh concept and a good comedy movie, for a first time producer,
Good choice, must say!!!

Vicky Donor is the story of Vicky arora who lives in Lajpat nagar with his grandmother and mother...
Its a typical Punjabi family setup..The mother is a quirky old fellow who runs beauty parlour and takes care of the son and the granny, while the son is good for nothing, typical punjabi Delhi boy..The mother and the granny are quite a pair with the "saas -bahu" bickering in the day and die for chemistry when they are a peg down in evening..

Vicky lifes takes a twisty U- Turn when Dr. Chadda(Annu kapoor) spots him and convinces him that he indeed has the choichest sperm quality to satisfy his clients..The infertility specialist Dr . chadha  does some really funny renditions of reproductive cycle, that sperm donation is actually a social service that pays as well..and how actually the entire mankind can be categourized on the basis of the sperms..

Its all a happy arrangement until Vicky falls for the very beautiful ashima Roy(Yami Gautam)..Their romance is very breezy and believable..The chemistry is good and PUnjabi/ bengali wedding is quite a laughathon..The twist in the tale comes when Ashima discovers that she cant concieve and that vicky was the sperm donor and she was not let into the secret before the wedding..


The second half is a little serious with the whole emotional, baby and trust thing but the cast delievers..The lead pair is promising and can act well and i had to reach for a tissue for once..:(

The movie is brilliant take on a very sensitive and controversial issue..Its something that would have very easily gone wrong with vulgar and sleazy humour..But the script is really intelligent and tight..U laugh , laugh harder and see more..The songs are melodious ..Pani da rang is a complete mush song that turns ur heart into jelly..Ayushman has done a great job with acting, composition and as a singer...

Its sin to miss this one...A good comedy movie after a long time..:):)

Time to go for tommorow i have my computer network exam and i havnt studied a slice of my sylabbus..

Hugging was invented for a bloody *GOOD* reason!!

"Hugs were invented to let people know you love them without having to say anything!!! A big hug for u" was the message one of  my friends forwarded me..Feeling the message i can't resist myself to write this blog..



I read somewhere back.."Disney land is the happiest place on this earth obviously they have not been in my arms"...so rightly said...as it was said for KASHMIR by some wise guy " agar dharti par kahin jannat hai to wo yahin hai, yahin hai.."..This  guy too have forgotten to remember the significance of eternal "embrace"..(sigh sigh)

I think I was made for *hugging* and *being hugged*...Its my cherished pass time..My favourite hobby..My ideal state to be in..It  is the inevitable cure all , priceless be all and ultimate end all..Its really amazing how a simple hug can conquer , transform and transcend...
feeling blue, feeling ecstatic, feelin victorious, feeling nothing ...The solution to all is a *simple hug*
 A simple hug may say that some one is there, everything will be alrite, that u did well, that its great to see you,
that u rock big time, u are my life, that i need u, that i wish these clothes doesnt come in between us and many more..

A hug must be full blown"jhappi" or nothing at all....when u close ur eyes and become  oblivious to world..Like munna bhai so rightly said it would  and should be a " jadoo ki jhappi.."" reinstanting bonds, culmi nating feelings, winning over the enemies!!!!!!!

ONE HUG CAN DO IT ALL...
So dear DH , gimme more and more of hugs for withut my daily dose of it!! I feel my body stiffen, emotions wither and muscles twitch..so the withdrawal symbols are pretty serious and i prefer to stay addicted,,..


P.S. hug to all my dear friends thank you for the warmth you bring in my every day life,...

P.P.S    sweethrt  DH i need a big waali "jaadu ki jhappi" from you that can bring my life back on a track..:):):):)

P.P.S  lately i have noticed  without a morning hug from my MOM , my day is tiffed like today..:(:(:(:(:(:(:(

"Guilt" as charged TODAY....!!!!!!!

The secret says that WE can categourize our feelings into two.....
GOOD and BAD
Good feelings consist of Happiness, Excitement, "LOVE", forgiveness, passion ,Sympathy and so on
Bad feelings consist of Fear, Envy, frustation,  anger, jealousy and so on..
Admist of all these emotions we always forget one very emotional aspect of our build up and that is "GUILT"
Probably because we dont know what it makes us feel...It makes us feel good if we get rid off it and it makes us feel bad when we cant get rid off it.
This G - factor is directly propotional to our conscience.I guess that this is how the term guilty conscience or guilt conscious was coined.
Why has guilt become so important emotion or feeling to discuss...........????????????????????????
Because when it comes to "guilty" everything else fails
Guilt pierces my heart and pricks my conscience...
Guilt tests my confidence whether i can move with the truth..
It  shows me how big a coward I am to hide my truth.
Guilts questions my self-respect..
Guilt gives me strength to face the truth..
It breaks me completely if the reality is too harsh too face...
It forces me to look into the mirror and look more than the 2 dimensional appearance...
U know it is :"guilt " when we can easily lie to others but we cant lie to ourselves...Guilt hurts my ego and makes me realize that I WAS WRONG...It gives me Sleepless nights sometimes...Guilt is when i have convinced other but cant convinced me..And there is a very thin line between guilt and REGRET...one begets the other..


Guilt hurts me most when I have betrayed my best friends, ditched my loving sister, or have lied to my beloved parents...Keeing everything aside this "G" can be overcomed by the three magical words which may sound repetive or fake but works wonder when u say them directly straight from your pure heart.."I AM SORRY" Now, I am sorry doesnot mean I was wrong and the other person was right but it means U value relationship more than your "ego"..
So next time to release the burden of guilt from your shoulders say the three magical words when u really mean it..Forget and forgive should be the way...!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A song for ' U " sweetheart..<3 <3

P.S. I am on my guilt conscience for what I did yesterday with my sweetheart...When she needed me the most I ignored to talk to her and disconnected her call..I AM SO SORRY " DH"

P.P.S Cudnt muster the courage to talk to you so sending u a sms and writing this blog..:)

P.P.P.S . I know like always though "dominating" and "demanding" yet "forgiving"  you  will forgive your "innocent" "down to earth" "humble" yet "cribbing" buddy..:) love u dh ..miss u...*hugs*

Have you ever got a HAIR SPA..????

"Have you ever got a HAIR SPA...???"
Today i was asked the same question and I had looked despairingly at the salon owner thinking damn..here SHE goes again.!!, trying to push me through one another service that i dont want..And what is wrong with people spending too much on frivolities that we can definately do without..?? I mean  HAIR SPA sounded something like so called "chochla" of big people with bigger pockets and the biggest of "vella" time..;) ;)


"Just get one maam" , she said with the eyes so full and assertive as if she is coaxing me to volunteer for some  mission of world peace..:P Post that she began how my dry hairs are begging for moisture..:(
"But i do wash them every second day with the shampoo" , I stressed (half wondering what these bloody ladies wash theirs with..??) I was then explained how my hairs are dry , damaged and some blah blah on pollution crap..Till now , being a science student i had lived on a premise that Pollution is fatal for lungs and breathing..But apparently like most of my premises this one too sucked and this time sucked my eternal beauty..:( :(:(
She had already made not so flattering remarks on my non toned and sagging skin , and my uneven complexion..I had finally began to wonder not about the so called "flaws" in my physicality but rather what the fuck was i still standing there and listening to her crap , waiting for her to rip me apart..My self esteem was wilting so low that it need a crane to lift it up again..:P
I told her point blank.."U are not helping ur own cause if U are going to pick my faults even worse than my MOM..;)) and finally she got a "jhatka" realising that she has overdone it and then began a butter dipped speech on how glowing my skin is otherwise and how soft skin is prone to problems in the old age and that my hairs are okay but just need a bit of pampering..She just saved herself from being crowned as the worst "SALES GIRL " tag..and almost started flaunting because I gave in for 1  trial session.


I was led inside a room and a little red lamp and candles were lit instead of harsh glares of bulbs and tubelights..Light music was being played getting me a feeling of drowsiness..When a handsome guy wearing an apron came and asked me to change into gown...Well i alerted myself dim red lights, gown, handsome young guy and a sexy lady..(lol :D :P)..But what the heck K  had got it done so who am i to act all TOUCH ME NOT..That wackiness runs in our genes when we wear salwar kameez also..:P 
And there i sat on a cushioned seat all set to get experimented...Why do the twenties have to be hyped everywhere to watch out for , just because they can sell different creams, scrubs,kits... I was then given a head wash and some cream was lavishly applied on my roots, enveloping my head , overall giving me a "FEEL GOOD"..Then my legs were placed in between an automatic mechanical massanger and i almost felt for a while that I had no legs at all..
And Then began the unexplained feeling..The guy created a magic with the right movements of his finger..He used the pressure to unlock every knotted and tired vein running through my head and spine..It was the most relaxing massage I ever had..In between i closed my eyes for a long gap and preassumed as if i have been transported to heaven for a while..The hair spa then culminated into arms, shoulder and neck and i was nodding with the immense pleasure..:):)


Thereafter begins hot steam treatment, equally hot coffee( no i didnt went there fore a free coffee..;) :P) , a hair wash again, conditioning and a well pampered me and my "hairs"..Three hours of such indulgence and i almost felt spoil..;) My hairs became so soft and silky that i thought my cluchter would fall off , with  the seducing smell and felt so sexy..:P :P
Post began my compulsive flirt with the guy..:P :P( sorry i tried very hard to stop myself but cudnt resist..;) lol) and u know what i said which i dont believe till now..i said to the guy.."Ur wife is a lucky woman if she gets this kind of massage everyday..;)) phew!! there i said it..and he just smiled shyly in response with the expression" God knows:" :P
(u know what  DH dis reminded me of the "bhaskar" incident 2 yrs back ..with a ease with which bhaskar was flirtin with us assuming "aaj to ladkiyan pat hi gai"..:P)


When i returned back home late my mom (with her black eyes wide open , staring at me with her "horrified " expressions as if i had done some atrocious crime..) i told my beloved mom how unbelievable was the experience, she mocked me saying that i only loved it because i got close to an actual massage by a guy (although it was just in my head litteraly..;)) Her suspicious eyebrows now got raised thinking what made me convinced so quickly..


"Ewwww!! i said almost offended not beause she raised a question on my "Ganga Ki tarah pavitra" intentions and actions but because she didnot trust me to have a good taste.."What, mom,,, dat massage guy was married , half bald and ugly" i slowly added although it doesnt tally with his features..:P..Ialso added dat i reject to have a package of 15 hair spa at a heavy discount so she should be proud of me as a thrifty daughter" ;) :P


P.S. an unbelievable experience, DH i suggest u shud also give a try once...;) 
P.P.S..I have once again fallen in love with my sexy seducing hairs..:P :P :P

And finally dis one goes for u " SS"..

People come in our life for a reason, a season or LIFETIME..I really could not see the depth in those big black eyes when I saw them for the very first time..But i knew she had something in her which is exceptional and which I had never witnessed before..;) ;)

Friends are made when some one clicks to U..one person U get so important in middle of the journey dat u share something and eventually everything in your life..one person who know what amount of shit you do everyday..:P ;) one person who is still not mature but U still listens to their advices..one person that is not available when U need them most but They will make U realize that U are not alone..:D

And instantly we became friends in no time..:) S as i hav observed doesnt know how to differniate people on the basis of anything..She never goes for an"outer cover" what matters to her is "the person inside"..The girl is completely free from ambiguity who knows how to handle the situations..:) and i m learning dis art from her..:P
A facebook aholic creature(and now i know Y..:P) , have an affinity for super natural elements..:P , cartoons..:P and a flair in editing pics...:) :) (love u for dat ;) ;) oh hello i m straight..:) ))

A partner in most of my crimes..(SPPM) , a sluggish yet stout hearted., confident and caring , honest and understanding loving and lazzyy  are the words quite insufficient to describe even a bit of her persona..S u was my listening ear when life was once really rough for me..

From breaking of my pink(:P) to hopping around WAVES, from military training camp to bustling around the college, from worst of days to the best ones..i am andwill always cherish the moments i spent wid u..



P.S. I appreciate S for her all time concern for me
P.P.S. Hoping that our friendship bond get more stronger by each passing day..

MY FAIR LADY...

With the international Women's day around the corner...I'll like to write down on the most influential woman in My life..
Undoubtedly, the woman who has had the maximum impact on my life is definitely my "MOTHER" ..She is one person who has stood by me through all thicks and thins..24 years into the marriage, she has never demanded anything..
M has brought me and K up as a balanced indiviuals, molding us with humane values..M  taught me how to create an environment of love, support and mutual respect for each other..She ensured we recieve an atmosphere of happiness and stability in a strong and united family..She provide us with a childhood devoid of any tensions ..

Having a glance at what M has sacrificed for us makes me emotional..Tears rolling down my face as I am writing this blog..M has supported me at all times...when i was low, depressed , stressed  and when things didnot work out..She had always motivated me and sacrificed a lot for me..She is my critique and most of all my pillar of strength..What she did for me is beyond what I can a  do for HER..I owe her a lot

Today I wish to thank her for all she has done for me..M you are grreat woman..Thanks for being always deRE..

THANKS FOR EVERYTHING...:)luv u loads...<3

i m a **GIRL**

**I will haggle with auto driver and vegetable vendor  for 5rs, but will buy a kajal for 400 bucks...**

**I WILL stand infront of wadrobe full of clothes and sigh..""GRR...I have nothing to wear" and yet I'll refuse to give any of those clothes...**

**If someone is ill , i'll give  them a medicine and  tell them to cut the drama and to stop over reacting, but will bring the universe down..if i 'll sneeze..:P**

**I'll mess up my room if i want..but if someone else moves in with a speck of dust, i'll attack..**

**I'll criticize Aishwariya Rai's nose and Priyanka Chopra's lips but will practise the turmeric and ream facepack all over my face in the onfines of my room..**

**I have no idea who won the Battle of waterloo or how many years the second world war was fought..But i'll know which star couple is getting divorced..**

**I'll claim to be modern, but if I see a black cat crossing my path, I'll freeaze and worry about what will go wrong that day..I'll also notice that it was very dirty cat..**

**If a tramp at bus stop letches at me..i'll feel voilated..iF any GOOD looking guy doesnt gives me a second glance i'll feel offended..**

**I'll forgive not forget...**

**I'll say "NOTHING.." when dere is quite clearly something wrong...

**If  I am  sad and depressed..I'll not try to kill myself..I'll go get a hair cut..As simple as that..**

**I may fall in love in an instant..But i'll take hours and many choices to decide what I want to have for dinner..**

**If i am angry , i'll not even look at ur face..**]

**Everything else seems ridiculous, but bolly wood movies and crappy reality TV shows make a sense to me..**

**If a girl is reserved, she's mysterious and intelligent...But if a guy is reserved, he 's spaced out and probably a closet rapist..**

**I'll retch after drinking a spoon of cough syrup ...but vodka and whisky will be next to nectar..**
** I may not remember who i went with school for 12 years..but i remember the mole on a cheek of a cute boy who was my crush..**

**I'LL GENERALIZE**

**I AM A GIRL**

Being a MAN..

Some stupid things have been continuosly blocking my mind..What is about being a MAN that fascinates you most...??????

If you would had asked me that question until about a few months , I like any other self proclaimed woman would have thrust my chin in the air and would have vehemently answered ..."NOTHING"! But as I grow older and pretty wiser too(:P Though my mom thinks as i m growing old i m getting more FOOLISH..lol..) I am forced to believe that there are certain things that God clearly has forgotten to bless  "US"  women with..)

I know my die-core hard feminist friend DH is going to claw me off for this..;) )
And i am not trying to mention some inconsequential  stuff like how the men can treat the world , how it is easy for them to dress in almost same pair of clothes and nobody notices them(:P), hormonol changes that takes place over their bodies , kids..blah blah.. <contempt>

Men , I  have observed, are blessed with oodles and oodles of optimism and more so where a lady is involved..If they set their heart on someone(or something), no matter how many kicks in the GUT  they recieve they will never give up..Women, I feel are big fool when it comes to LOVE..

The other thing i really envy in Guys is how clearly their life is divided into black and white, while WE girls struggle with almost 673 shades of grey!! Guys will always have chalked out things that they wanted to do and what not to do..While we girls will nervously keep shuffling feet and wringing our hands about the pros and cons of the decision we are going to make...how it will affect our near and dear ones..While the guys will go ahead, make the decision and either be succesful at it, gain experience and MOVE ON..!!!

COOL HEADED is the word that comes to my mind when I think about my MALE frnds..Inculcated with the high degree of flexibility and far more likely to grab the winning spirit.."WE" woman are overly aggresive ..But with this letter "M"  politiness is combined with "ATTITUDE" which makes a lethal combination and will make other sit up and notice them..


On the other side, it does feel like a blessing to be a WOMAN..but when i am getting late for the college and still undecided what to wear..(*wink wink*;)) or what gift to buy for family and friends, the NEVER ENDING  confusion whether they will like it or not, neverending guilt of spending more time with friends than family..:P or when I see my new jeans getting wasted because I have shed tonnes of weight, i really wish i could be a MAN...

Today as i sit  in Seminar HALL," amity university, moc, lucknow, up " wasting my time with S and M..u might be thinking what made me write this blog..Have i fallen in for SOMEONE..???(:D)

*SIGH SIGH* P.S this post is solely dedicated to all my "M " friends  for their perseverance and tolerance for me over the years..and they will love to read this shared on a global platform and publically acknowledged...LOL..:):)


cheers!!!!
ciao..!!!

Where did February GO..????

Ohkay..I'll tell you...

It when down the drain...

It was wasted in making long lists and schedules that i am never going to follow..(DH dont worry it was not the time table we used to make..:P )

It was spent on thoughts and people and notions and judgemements that donot mean...

It was spent on worrying about the  people who really dont care...

It was spent on ignoring the ones who do...

I made two new friends S & M....:) (SR don't get jealous ...)

It was a month of mood swing(from gloomy to happy and vice versa..:))

It was a month of pointless conversations..

It was a month for a "big surprise.."

P.S.. "WASTED"

HOME ALONE......

Um..um.."home alone"...I was supposed to go the marriage party...:( But i told mom i m feeling restless so she asked me to stay at home and take rest...

As I lie in my bed(feeling sleepy...*yawn yawn*), my subconscious reminds me I am alone at home..(ALL ALONE..The fear starts creeping back in..I had with all my might pushed it out of me, myself and my system...
I again remind myself not to drink too much of water(for obvious reason...:P)..I  am too afraid to venture out of my room..but my throat is dry at the thought of long hrs that lie ahead..I m cursing myself for not going along with THEM...
My inner conscious is playing games with me...Its again and again reminding me of spooky horror films that ihave forgotten back..BLOODY hell ! reminiscing the so called HAUNTED ROOM of our hstl...the hell of all sh*ty horror talks we did in hostl...Does that all scare me..?????To be very frank I am scared to the bare skin of my soul..:(
I have started surfing the net..My cell ranged and i skipped a heartbeat..(that was a frigging relative of mine..)  ..Some strange noise outside that goes like *thak thak* ...now what to do..?? I miss u DH..miss u Kg..miss u maa, miss u dady, miss u K..I am feeling hungry also...But Kitchen is the dangerous place to go..(all those night dwelling creatures must have maD their presence..) This reminds me of a funny incident of hostel at 2.30 am when me and kg shouted hearing *tinkling of anklets* and warden scolded us...lol...)

*YAWN..YAWN* i am feeling sleepy..mom dad come soon...:) :) :):):):):):):)

Secrets revealed..!!!!

Tits and bits about myself..!!!

* I am the eldest child in the family..And I have a LOVE/HATE feeling about being one..Dont get me started on this..Just save yourself a lot of confusion..:P

* I trust a bit too easily...I care a bit too much...AND i love a but too uncoditionally...Sorry cant help...!!

*I am shy..Too shy and yes I accept it!!!

*I hate self pity..!!! I hate it..i hate it...

*Nostalgia scarces me..It makes me think of the magical moments I've lived and the magicalpeople without whom I cant imagine life..

*I am a vIRGO..and a true one I think..really..I dont believe in horoscopes though..but these zodiac traits makes a lot of sense to me..:P

* I cannot eat a lot in one go..My mum calls me squirrel becoze i nibble food every two hours..Like what has to squirrel  do with all this..???Random comparisions..Oh..oKAY...now i got to know where I got my randomness genes from..:P

*I can cry when I am laughing too loud and I can laugh while I am crying(I just need the right person to make the latter happen)

*Yes I am a typical girl and even a tiniest compliment from any random person makes me glowing all day..!!!>>>:):)

* I am more of a texting  person...Phone conversations especially with newly made friends are plainly awkard..


*I love all little things in this world..!! All little things which we take as granted..;)