Where did February GO..????

Ohkay..I'll tell you...

It when down the drain...

It was wasted in making long lists and schedules that i am never going to follow..(DH dont worry it was not the time table we used to make..:P )

It was spent on thoughts and people and notions and judgemements that donot mean...

It was spent on worrying about the  people who really dont care...

It was spent on ignoring the ones who do...

I made two new friends S & M....:) (SR don't get jealous ...)

It was a month of mood swing(from gloomy to happy and vice versa..:))

It was a month of pointless conversations..

It was a month for a "big surprise.."

P.S.. "WASTED"

HOME ALONE......

Um..um.."home alone"...I was supposed to go the marriage party...:( But i told mom i m feeling restless so she asked me to stay at home and take rest...

As I lie in my bed(feeling sleepy...*yawn yawn*), my subconscious reminds me I am alone at home..(ALL ALONE..The fear starts creeping back in..I had with all my might pushed it out of me, myself and my system...
I again remind myself not to drink too much of water(for obvious reason...:P)..I  am too afraid to venture out of my room..but my throat is dry at the thought of long hrs that lie ahead..I m cursing myself for not going along with THEM...
My inner conscious is playing games with me...Its again and again reminding me of spooky horror films that ihave forgotten back..BLOODY hell ! reminiscing the so called HAUNTED ROOM of our hstl...the hell of all sh*ty horror talks we did in hostl...Does that all scare me..?????To be very frank I am scared to the bare skin of my soul..:(
I have started surfing the net..My cell ranged and i skipped a heartbeat..(that was a frigging relative of mine..)  ..Some strange noise outside that goes like *thak thak* ...now what to do..?? I miss u DH..miss u Kg..miss u maa, miss u dady, miss u K..I am feeling hungry also...But Kitchen is the dangerous place to go..(all those night dwelling creatures must have maD their presence..) This reminds me of a funny incident of hostel at 2.30 am when me and kg shouted hearing *tinkling of anklets* and warden scolded us...lol...)

*YAWN..YAWN* i am feeling sleepy..mom dad come soon...:) :) :):):):):):):)

Secrets revealed..!!!!

Tits and bits about myself..!!!

* I am the eldest child in the family..And I have a LOVE/HATE feeling about being one..Dont get me started on this..Just save yourself a lot of confusion..:P

* I trust a bit too easily...I care a bit too much...AND i love a but too uncoditionally...Sorry cant help...!!

*I am shy..Too shy and yes I accept it!!!

*I hate self pity..!!! I hate it..i hate it...

*Nostalgia scarces me..It makes me think of the magical moments I've lived and the magicalpeople without whom I cant imagine life..

*I am a vIRGO..and a true one I think..really..I dont believe in horoscopes though..but these zodiac traits makes a lot of sense to me..:P

* I cannot eat a lot in one go..My mum calls me squirrel becoze i nibble food every two hours..Like what has to squirrel  do with all this..???Random comparisions..Oh..oKAY...now i got to know where I got my randomness genes from..:P

*I can cry when I am laughing too loud and I can laugh while I am crying(I just need the right person to make the latter happen)

*Yes I am a typical girl and even a tiniest compliment from any random person makes me glowing all day..!!!>>>:):)

* I am more of a texting  person...Phone conversations especially with newly made friends are plainly awkard..


*I love all little things in this world..!! All little things which we take as granted..;)

Of sizes and shapes...:)

120 pounds, 65 inches, size 6...In this new era of washboard abs and size zero- incense stick figures ..i look lyk a heavy weight champion...:O May be i should compete for the world's fattest girl..:P That's what i feel even with 4 size smaller and 17 bigger sizes categourized in the chart..:/




All through my years of adoloscene I was so worried about the baby fat i had...:O..Looking back at the pics of that, i  would classify myself as " baby elephant", at least going by my current stats..


Another 2-3 kgs shed and my insides will be sticking to each other, there will no space for food to pass through..i Will dissapear into nothing ness..I am reminded of those cartoon where a vechicle tramples u and u got flat, inflated with air to get back into the shape...


I kind of miss the fat that I had..Atleast it was easier to sit...;) My bones didnt hurt me back then...Why the day dawned when i my cribbing my stats and shape..& still wondering if it is worth losing another few pounds...:O 


P.S. I havent quited eating yummy things like choclates. icecreams and doughnuts..!!! i still love them..:)
P.P.S Hoping to return all round and cherubic after Holi..:)
the last P.S ..this blog was meant for the people telling them to ditch the size size figure..:P